Let's Try to be Happy

I can smile when I need to, even when it hurts, but I always try to find the good in everything and I also try to be as optimistic as possible.

No matter how down I get, I somehow find the light at the end of the tunnel, even when I'm at my lowest.

I drown myself in music and I think things through, or at least I try to. Sometimes I end up drowning in music for a long time... I kind of float there, listening to the words as I sort my thoughts out.

I think of how much my friends (and you know who you are) mean to me and how much they help me out when I feel at a loss... Making me laugh at the random shit in life and then I remember, "Hey, I remember laughing at this when I'm happy too." And I end up laughing some more.

I will say that I do miss having random conversations with Kels, for sure, because we could only really have these conversations without anyone judging us or judging each other for that matter.

Also.... And I know that this is really, REALLY unhealthy, but cookie dough makes the world a better place when I am down too. And if I don't have it on hand, well, cookie dough ice cream works just as well. Haha.

As I float in this sea of music, I will be listening to the words (if there are word, because at the moment, I am listening to dub-step...) and I shall continue on this journey to the light and self reflection and smile all the way through with my cookie dough ice cream in tow, thinking of my friends and family and how saying "Thank you" will never be enough. You guys mean the world to me and I love you. I really do!

Until next time, this star sailor will be heading to Jupiter to get some Jupiter drops in her hair.

TTFN

Lexy♥

How Music Speaks to Me...

Lately I've been listening to a lot of songs to keep me myself on track. But the funny thing is, it's always the sad songs that speak to me more than the happier ones. And no, I'm not sad when I listen to them, I just like to enjoy the song.

When listening to music, I sometimes don't have to have a reason to want to listen to it other than to just enjoy it. I don't have a favorite genre per se, I listen to what I feel like listening too and that ranges from Screamo to Disney showtunes. I'm sure I weird people out when I get excited over old school gangster rap or if I start singing a little Van Halen afterwards.

I never really realized it was an issue with the music I listen to until I was told that what I've been listening to isn't "normally" what I listen to. But what is "normal" music? And why do I have to have a reason to listen to whatever?

Some songs speak to me and take me back to whatever memory I have connected to it. If I listen to the song "Every Thug Needs A Lady" by Alkaline Trio, I see my 16 year old self singing it while walking home with my cousin from the bus stop. Or if I hear any Tupac or Biggie song, I'm reverted back to my 7 year old self sitting in the car with my dad heading to miniature golf.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that music is a part of you, no matter what you listen to, and that you really don't have explain yourself when you listen to certain songs. Whatever song speaks to your heart, listen to it. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

What's your favorite song? Or favorite memory that a song brings you back to when you hear it?

TTFN

Lexy♥