le sigh

just want to rant a little...please you dont have to comment and such, i'm kinda not really in the mood for it. i had an interview today. it was a unique group interview. they made us remember our groups names and their hobbies and such and also made us perform a commercial. i am an introvert, i warm up to people when i get to know them, but today, oh gawd, how today i wish i was more out there, more talkative more attention grabbing. i tried my hardest and i guess it wasnt enough. i didnt make it past the first cut and when i got to the car i actually cried. i never cry after an interview...ever. i take it with a glass of water and on to the next. but i really wanted this job... and i felt so awful that i didnt get it... i made quick friends today and i think thats why it hurt a little more that i got cut. i wish that my shyness didnt get in the way... i wish people can see that i am a damn good worker behind my quiet demeanor... ok enough with my ranting, after i got home, i went and skateboarded by myself to clear my head and help me feel better. having the bike path to myself and having the wind in my hair helped a lot with my frustrations and my self hate...and then i came home to a loving husband who appreciates me for everything and anything i do. that made me feel better. having someone love you for who you are and know how good of a person you are is a great feeling.