Let's Try to be Happy

I can smile when I need to, even when it hurts, but I always try to find the good in everything and I also try to be as optimistic as possible.

No matter how down I get, I somehow find the light at the end of the tunnel, even when I'm at my lowest.

I drown myself in music and I think things through, or at least I try to. Sometimes I end up drowning in music for a long time... I kind of float there, listening to the words as I sort my thoughts out.

I think of how much my friends (and you know who you are) mean to me and how much they help me out when I feel at a loss... Making me laugh at the random shit in life and then I remember, "Hey, I remember laughing at this when I'm happy too." And I end up laughing some more.

I will say that I do miss having random conversations with Kels, for sure, because we could only really have these conversations without anyone judging us or judging each other for that matter.

Also.... And I know that this is really, REALLY unhealthy, but cookie dough makes the world a better place when I am down too. And if I don't have it on hand, well, cookie dough ice cream works just as well. Haha.

As I float in this sea of music, I will be listening to the words (if there are word, because at the moment, I am listening to dub-step...) and I shall continue on this journey to the light and self reflection and smile all the way through with my cookie dough ice cream in tow, thinking of my friends and family and how saying "Thank you" will never be enough. You guys mean the world to me and I love you. I really do!

Until next time, this star sailor will be heading to Jupiter to get some Jupiter drops in her hair.

TTFN

Lexy♥

So I've Kinda Been Anti-social.....

 

 Soooo, I've kinda been anti-social with my real life friends, my interweb/WoW friends and my family. I don't know why, but I get in a kind of funk and I don't really want to talk to anyone. But I feel bad that I haven't talked to anyone, so I try and let everyone know that I'm still thinking about them and that I haven't forgotten about them, it's just that I haven't been in the mood to talk because I really don't have much to talk about or that I just don't want to talk. (I'm weird...)
 I've been feeling homesick since my birthday a few weeks back, missing everyone and also being bummed out that I'm 25 now. I'm not a youngling anymore, I'm realizing that I'm getting old. I've also haven't really accomplished much in my life and I feel like I need to still prove myself, prove to my family and friends that I can do something. But instead, I've kind of been on the down low and have been hiding myself from the world, and I feel like me hiding from everyone will make things better, and in reality, it's not. It's actually really sad that I'm afraid to talk to people when I'm in a funk because I'm afraid they are going to judge me because I tend to be weird about my dreams and what I want to do with my life.
 I know eventually I'll get out of this funk, but right now, I'm gonna kind of wallow in it and keep trying to find the positive I bring to the people around me and try not to stress out about my achievements and goals and try live life as positive and happy as I can.


TTFN

Lexy♥